It is DECEMBER 1ST!! AND it is COLD outside! Well, cold for Texas right now. I believe it was 49 or 50 degrees this morning and is supposed to get down to 38 tonight!! Woohoo!! I can finally say the air at night is getting clearer and feels more fresh to breathe! Reminds me a little bit of back home in Upper East Tennessee. Oh how I miss the mountains and the mountain air! I always do. I never say it but I do. Trust me...I do.
Well, I thought I'd start by saying what a wonderful Thanksgiving week I had with family and friends. I did have to work Monday through Wednesday but that was totally fine as I was feeling almost back to 100% and was able to work, which after being sick so long with the flu, coming in to work is a wonderful feeling!
I was able to spend some fun times with Scott, Matt's brother. He was in town from Saturday to Saturday. He and Matt had some great brother time too while he was here, which I'm so happy about! I have to say, though, it was like having two Matt's around me! I had not only 1 but 2 giving me a hard time, picking on me, making me laugh, etc. I did not mind one bit! We went to dinner and to see the Blind Side the Saturday before Thanksgiving. We had some yummy alligator from Orleans and then headed to the movie. If you have not seen the Blind Side, you must! Seriously! It is a phenomenal movie. Sandra Bullock deserves and Oscar in my book. I felt so blessed and touched when I left the movie. I've never been one to feel like I deserve anything as I feel God has truly blessed me with everything I have in my life. However, hearing Michael Oher's story really touched me. I hope that I and my future family will be as open should God call us to something similar.
Thanksgiving Day was actually pretty laid back for us this year. My brother and sister were in College Station still as they were attending the A&M vs UT game that night. My mom, Dad, and I joined my aunt and uncle at my grandmother's place for lunch, though. It was really nice to see her new place and have lunch with her. I think she is really going to like it there and will make lots of friends. She doesn't even have to cook if she doesn't want to...how great is that for a woman in her 80's! Later I went over to Matt's and he, Scott, and I ended up playing The Simpsons Scene It. Now those of you who know me well, know that I've probably only seen maybe one, well now, 2 episodes all the way through! It was interesting, fun, and I have to thank Scott for some help here and there he gave me! Scott won the game! We also watched the 4th quarter of the game, which I had been keeping track of on my phone, and all I have to say is that Aggies we left a lot of points on the field. Hopefully next year our young team will become more seasoned and show some real potential and promise for the future. I hope!
Friday - the day of the Powell Thanksgiving Feast! Mom and I were up early to start cooking; well, me at 8:30 since they forgot to wake me up earlier! We cooked and cooked. Dad was great and even stopped by the grocery store for some items we had forgotten. The spread was great: Cajun fried turkey, cornbread dressing, cranberry sauce, sweet potato casserole, orange salad, cranberry-apple casserole, fresh green beans, pea and bean salad, zucchini casserole, pecan pie, and banana pudding! YUM!! Matt and Scott joined me, mom, dad, Lauren, Daniel, and grandmother for a late lunch/early dinner. We were all stuffed but it sure was good. Lots of good conversation was had, laughter occurred, darts were played, and ping pong was played. All in all...a great Thanksgiving Feast!
That night the 5 of us went out to Hempstead for a bonfire and smores! Let me tell you that it got hot. It had been a long time since only the 5 of us have been together and it was really nice. Dad mentioned how the center of that fire is how hell is going to be and you won't die; no relief. I can tell you that was the most real feeling I've had of what hell would be like. I can tell you from the depths of my soul that I am so thankful that my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ would die for me and would save me so that I might join him in heaven one day! I am so blessed and thankful for that and my decision to accept His free gift! I am far from perfect and at times I know I don't live the life I should, but I strive to every day.
Then....skip to Sunday after a great Saturday. My sister and I went to the Colts game!! They were in town playing the Texans. My parents had given my sister 2 tickets for amazing seats to the game on the Colts sideline. She took me! Me! I was so stinkin excited. Matt bought me a Peyton Manning jersey Saturday for me to wear to the game. It totally surprised me! So, I wore my new jersey and Lauren and I ventured into the Reliant Park area of town. We got into the stadium as soon as we were allowed and enjoyed every single minute of our time there. It was a bit surreal. The Colts played and amazing game. It was pretty awesome seeing Peyton Manning! Collie! Dallas Clark! Saturday! Garcon! All soo close to us! The Colts pulled out another win to have their season be 11-0 now!
Now we are at a new week. Today is December 1st! Today is exciting for many reasons. The Christmas season is here and it makes me so happy!
I hope you have a great day and remember Jesus is the Reason for the Season!
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Thankfulness - past, present, and future! :)
**Disclaimer: This was supposed to be a Thanksgiving 2009 post on all that I have to be thankful for, or rather some of what I have to be thankful for; however, I've now decided it is a post on what I was thankful throughout the 2000's and what I'm thankful for and feel blessed to have in my life as we are now in 2010!
I have so many things to be thankful for this year as God has blessed me beyond measure.
1. I'm thankful for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, whom I would not be the same without. God has truly blessed me and has led me through so much that I must thank Him in the storm and in the good.
2. I'm thankful for my family. I have parents who love me and gave me a wonderful upbringing. They are wonderful Christians and would do anything for my siblings and me.
A beautiful sister who just got her Aggie Ring (Whoop!) and is going to be an amazing elementary school teach soon! We may have our sibling moments, but I love her dearly and we have mucho fun together laughing, acting crazy, having serious talks, etc.
A brother who gives all of us a hard time no matter (he takes after dad!). We love him though! He may act all macho and such but he is still my sweet brother who would do anything for me.
3. I'm thankful for my boyfriend, Matt, who challenges me, encourages me, and I'm very proud of him! He is an amazing coach and teacher. We have lots of fun together - laughing, him giving me a hard time (!), me trying to give him a hard time (!), and much more.
October 2008 - Me holding Reid, Kristin (now has a baby, Emma!), Shelley, and Lauren (Reid's momma!). Love these girls and they are some of my bestest friends!
Courtney and Me! She had just gotten back from England and getting engaged at the London Eye! I am happy to say that I will be blessed to stand up at her and Steven's wedding as a bridesmaid! They are very special friends and she is one of my closest friends!
More friends I'm thankful for!! Front row - Mel, Cassie, Kenna, and Steph. Back row - Courtney and Me. Missing is Julie.
One of my besties from college, Shelley and her husband, Jimmy! They are so cute together and are so wonderful to have me over to play games and eat dinner. :)
2 of my best friends from high school - Rachel and Suzanne. This was after Christmas 2008 when I was able to visit, we had such a wonderful evening! :) I miss them a lot!!
5. I'm also thankful for my extended family, my job, my church, and that I'm blessed with a house and car.
I look forward to all that 2010 will bring!! :)
Friday, October 30, 2009
Born Again by Thirrd Day
I sent the following in an email to some friends who are special to me. I thought I would share with all of you too as I know I missed some people on the email, as I'm at work.
Good Morning! Born Again by Third Day just came on ksbj. I'm very blessed to be able to listen to the station online during the day. It helps keep me focused and in the right frame of mind, especially with co-workers frustrate me or other things that may come up. Born Again by Third Day has been one of my favorite songs for months (along with Revelation Song...check it out too!). I think one reason is because 2009 has been a year so far where I've felt more alive than I did last year and God has really been revealing to me His joy, His plan, and how life is truly what we make of it. I have always believed that and I've always trusted God would take me to where He wants me to be. I mean, I'm still in Texas after coming here over 10 years ago! That was not my plan, but I'm loving every minute of it knowing it is where He wants me to be right now.
Anyway, I will keep this short. I really feel like every day we should live, truly live, like it is the first time. So many people cross our path every day (students, adults, co-workers, little children, etc.). I've always thought that I might be planting seeds that I may never see bloom and I'm ok with that. As long as I'm living as Christ has called me to live and finding the joy in every day, everything else will come and will be handled accordingly no matter how easy or tough the situation may be.
I pray God blesses each one of you today!
Misty
Here is a link on youtube where you can hear the song if you don't know it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Fw9EDKGHTU
Here are the lyrics and I hope they are accurate as I pulled them from some website.
Today I found myself,
After searching all these years,
And the man that I saw,
He wasn't at all who I'd thought He'd be,
I was lost when You found me here,
And I was broken beyond repair,
Then You came along and sang Your song over me
Chorus 1
It feels like I'm born again
It feels like I'm living
For the very first time
For the very first time,
In my life
Verse 2
Make a promise to me now,
Reassure my heart somehow,
That the love that I feel,
is so much more real than anything
I've a feeling in my soul,
And I pray that I'm not wrong,
That the life I have now,
It is only the beginning
Chorus 2
It feels like I'm born again
It feels like I'm living
For the very first time
For the very first time
It feels like I'm breathing
It feels like I'm moving
For the very first time
For the very first time
Bridge
I wasn't looking for something that was more,
Than what I had yesterday,
Then You came to me,
Then You gave to me,
Life and a love that I've never known,
That I've never felt before
Final Chorus
It feels like I'm born again
It feels like I'm living
For the very first time
I'm living for the first time
It feels like I'm breathing
It feels like I'm moving
For the very first time
I'm living for the first time,
In my life
Good Morning! Born Again by Third Day just came on ksbj. I'm very blessed to be able to listen to the station online during the day. It helps keep me focused and in the right frame of mind, especially with co-workers frustrate me or other things that may come up. Born Again by Third Day has been one of my favorite songs for months (along with Revelation Song...check it out too!). I think one reason is because 2009 has been a year so far where I've felt more alive than I did last year and God has really been revealing to me His joy, His plan, and how life is truly what we make of it. I have always believed that and I've always trusted God would take me to where He wants me to be. I mean, I'm still in Texas after coming here over 10 years ago! That was not my plan, but I'm loving every minute of it knowing it is where He wants me to be right now.
Anyway, I will keep this short. I really feel like every day we should live, truly live, like it is the first time. So many people cross our path every day (students, adults, co-workers, little children, etc.). I've always thought that I might be planting seeds that I may never see bloom and I'm ok with that. As long as I'm living as Christ has called me to live and finding the joy in every day, everything else will come and will be handled accordingly no matter how easy or tough the situation may be.
I pray God blesses each one of you today!
Misty
Here is a link on youtube where you can hear the song if you don't know it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Fw9EDKGHTU
Here are the lyrics and I hope they are accurate as I pulled them from some website.
Today I found myself,
After searching all these years,
And the man that I saw,
He wasn't at all who I'd thought He'd be,
I was lost when You found me here,
And I was broken beyond repair,
Then You came along and sang Your song over me
Chorus 1
It feels like I'm born again
It feels like I'm living
For the very first time
For the very first time,
In my life
Verse 2
Make a promise to me now,
Reassure my heart somehow,
That the love that I feel,
is so much more real than anything
I've a feeling in my soul,
And I pray that I'm not wrong,
That the life I have now,
It is only the beginning
Chorus 2
It feels like I'm born again
It feels like I'm living
For the very first time
For the very first time
It feels like I'm breathing
It feels like I'm moving
For the very first time
For the very first time
Bridge
I wasn't looking for something that was more,
Than what I had yesterday,
Then You came to me,
Then You gave to me,
Life and a love that I've never known,
That I've never felt before
Final Chorus
It feels like I'm born again
It feels like I'm living
For the very first time
I'm living for the first time
It feels like I'm breathing
It feels like I'm moving
For the very first time
I'm living for the first time,
In my life
Welcome to Kiva Victorie!!
A fellow aggie, phi lamb alum, sister in Christ gave birth to her beautiful daughter Kiva Victorie on Wednesday! She joins older sister Jada, mom and dad!
Check out pictures of The Lee Family!
I hope you are having a wonderful and blessed Friday!!
Check out pictures of The Lee Family!
I hope you are having a wonderful and blessed Friday!!
Monday, October 26, 2009
Football!!
So, we are in the midst of football season right now! Here is what my football fall has looked like so far:
COLLEGE: TEXAS A&M UNIVERSITY - Home of the 12th Man and I am a proud Aggie! This past weekend we beat Texas Tech in Lubbock!! It had been years since we beat them in Lubbock. So, I'm hoping for a few more wins and a win against the Longhorns on Thanksgiving! Aggie fight never dies!!
HIGH SCHOOL: TAYLOR HIGH SCHOOL in Katy - Home of the Mustangs! Two more games until playoffs. I'm very proud of them this year and they have great potential to finish out the season in a great way!
NFL: INDIANAPOLIS COLTS - where Peyton Manning is the QB! They are currently 6-0, amazing! I'm very proud of them too this year, especially since we no longer have Coach Dungy as head coach. He is missed but I'm sure he is enjoying retirement and other ventures.
FANTASY FOOTBALL: THE MUSTANGS! - my sister and I are playing in my office's league. We are doing great considering we were last pick in the draft! We are matched against my mom and brother right now with the last game being played tonight. We are currently ahead and beating them. I feel bad for mom.
As you can tell I'm really enjoying this football season. All of my teams aren't necessarily performing as I would like, well, except for the Colts, but that doesn't matter. I stand by them no matter what and have faith that they will put their capabilities out there and just play! We shall see what the remainder of the season holds. I'm excited! What about you?!
COLLEGE: TEXAS A&M UNIVERSITY - Home of the 12th Man and I am a proud Aggie! This past weekend we beat Texas Tech in Lubbock!! It had been years since we beat them in Lubbock. So, I'm hoping for a few more wins and a win against the Longhorns on Thanksgiving! Aggie fight never dies!!
HIGH SCHOOL: TAYLOR HIGH SCHOOL in Katy - Home of the Mustangs! Two more games until playoffs. I'm very proud of them this year and they have great potential to finish out the season in a great way!
NFL: INDIANAPOLIS COLTS - where Peyton Manning is the QB! They are currently 6-0, amazing! I'm very proud of them too this year, especially since we no longer have Coach Dungy as head coach. He is missed but I'm sure he is enjoying retirement and other ventures.
FANTASY FOOTBALL: THE MUSTANGS! - my sister and I are playing in my office's league. We are doing great considering we were last pick in the draft! We are matched against my mom and brother right now with the last game being played tonight. We are currently ahead and beating them. I feel bad for mom.
As you can tell I'm really enjoying this football season. All of my teams aren't necessarily performing as I would like, well, except for the Colts, but that doesn't matter. I stand by them no matter what and have faith that they will put their capabilities out there and just play! We shall see what the remainder of the season holds. I'm excited! What about you?!
Monday, October 19, 2009
Emma is...
...on her way!!!!
I will be an "aunt" for the second time very soon!
I'm so happy to have little, adorable Reid! I just don't get to see him near enough! Luckily I get to see his momma at least once a year, which I'm thankful for. I only wish I could see the whole family that much and of course, more!
Today, October 19, 2009 Emma will be born! Her wonderful parents Kristin and David are so happy for her arrival. I can't wait!
I love little boys and totally need to send Reid some cute little things. I don't think he is spoiled quite enough!
However, I love little girls too! Plus, little girls allow me to indulge in my love of pink, lace, frills, etc. Kristin isn't a big fan of pink, so I will try my best to keep the pink to a minimum!
If you would like to check out the progress here is a link to their blog: http://thehowellhappenings.blogspot.com/
Have a glorious day and week!!
I will be an "aunt" for the second time very soon!
I'm so happy to have little, adorable Reid! I just don't get to see him near enough! Luckily I get to see his momma at least once a year, which I'm thankful for. I only wish I could see the whole family that much and of course, more!
Today, October 19, 2009 Emma will be born! Her wonderful parents Kristin and David are so happy for her arrival. I can't wait!
I love little boys and totally need to send Reid some cute little things. I don't think he is spoiled quite enough!
However, I love little girls too! Plus, little girls allow me to indulge in my love of pink, lace, frills, etc. Kristin isn't a big fan of pink, so I will try my best to keep the pink to a minimum!
If you would like to check out the progress here is a link to their blog: http://thehowellhappenings.blogspot.com/
Have a glorious day and week!!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Camping
That's what I'm doing this weekend. Well, part of the weekend. My weekend is full of fun things with my friends and hopefully lunch with my sister on Sunday!!
I'm not a camper. I'm a city girl with a little bit of country in her. However, that city girl sure does like her hotels (ones that are clean, spiffy, comfy, etc.). Well, our bible study class at church is doing a co-ed camping trip tomorrow and Saturday. I decided to tag along. It should be quite the adventure as I think 32 people have RSVP'd! Oh my!! I think this might be our biggest showing ever at a social event. Amazing and wonderful!
I will miss being in my own bed Friday night, as we are officially going to have fall weather...lows in the 50's! Yikes, but yay!! However, I will have fun.
The rest of the weekend promises to be fun to with some errands and cleaning hopefully fitting in there too!
I'm determined to take pics...so more after the weekend...
I'm not a camper. I'm a city girl with a little bit of country in her. However, that city girl sure does like her hotels (ones that are clean, spiffy, comfy, etc.). Well, our bible study class at church is doing a co-ed camping trip tomorrow and Saturday. I decided to tag along. It should be quite the adventure as I think 32 people have RSVP'd! Oh my!! I think this might be our biggest showing ever at a social event. Amazing and wonderful!
I will miss being in my own bed Friday night, as we are officially going to have fall weather...lows in the 50's! Yikes, but yay!! However, I will have fun.
The rest of the weekend promises to be fun to with some errands and cleaning hopefully fitting in there too!
I'm determined to take pics...so more after the weekend...
Saturday, September 19, 2009
So proud...
...of my high school Alma Mater!!!!
Daniel Boone High School BEAT Dobyns-Bennett High School: 17-14
Way to go Trailblazers!! Amazing and I knew you had it in you!!!!
Sending Love from Houston, TX!!!!
Monday, September 14, 2009
This Sums it ALL UP!
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you are just as pretty without makeup on;
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares, and loves being with you, and how he is the luckiest guy in the world to have you....the one who turns to his friends and says, "that's her".
ALL I can say is I love this quote. It sums up everything I've been thinking, trying to say for so long. I do know God will provide that guy for me in His timing and it will be wonderful! To all my friends who have found the guy talked about in the above quote, I've seen it and know that you are blessed and God provided the perfect guy for you! Love you all much!! :)
Thursday, September 10, 2009
The Unexpected....Yet Totally God's Timing...
Oh, where do I start?! I've recently been blessed with renewal, answers, openness, acceptance of forgiveness given months ago, and much more.
It is amazing for me to look at the past year or even more and see where God has brought me and others in my life. Last year I went through some amazingly happy times and then some extremely hard, hurtful (very) times. Those hurtful times came to an end early this year and I forgave. I forgave. I knew it was what God called me to do. I knew I had to step away from the situation. I knew only HE could work in the lives of those involved including my own. Boy, has God worked. Yes He has!
I recently received answers to many questions I had that I never, ever thought I would received answers to. I received an admission to things that had happened. I've realized it had to happen this way. I've seen healing in eyes that were hard, cold, and unresponsive. Some of the answers did not give a clear path or plan regarding the future, but how can I not believe and trust the changes are for good. God calls us to forgive and to love. He has called me to do this. He has also called me to be a person where I cannot just write others out of my life.
It is amazing when you can see God has worked in someone's life and you didn't even know it was happening. Maybe God used me in that situation. I know He used others. Healing. It comes through time. I've healed. It doesn't mean I still don't hurt sometimes because of what happened but it means that I've moved past it; I've forgiven everything about the situation. People change. However, the best change is when you see God's hand in the situation; when you see their desire to grow closer to Christ; when you see they want to live the life God has called them to live and is on the journey no matter where it may take them. This makes me happy! =)
The unexpected, yes, has happened to me recently and continues to. Is it God's timing? Totally! I never would have thought I would be such a stronger person, more in tune with who I am and what I want out of life when everything happened last year. However, here I am! Stronger, closer to God, wanting to be closer, and knowing He is in control...not me!
You, however, may be thinking: "I want answers. I want the unexpected to happen to me." Just wait. It may not come in the way you are thinking or in the way that you want, but God will bring it to you in the form and fashion He desires. In the end that is all that matters.
It is amazing for me to look at the past year or even more and see where God has brought me and others in my life. Last year I went through some amazingly happy times and then some extremely hard, hurtful (very) times. Those hurtful times came to an end early this year and I forgave. I forgave. I knew it was what God called me to do. I knew I had to step away from the situation. I knew only HE could work in the lives of those involved including my own. Boy, has God worked. Yes He has!
I recently received answers to many questions I had that I never, ever thought I would received answers to. I received an admission to things that had happened. I've realized it had to happen this way. I've seen healing in eyes that were hard, cold, and unresponsive. Some of the answers did not give a clear path or plan regarding the future, but how can I not believe and trust the changes are for good. God calls us to forgive and to love. He has called me to do this. He has also called me to be a person where I cannot just write others out of my life.
It is amazing when you can see God has worked in someone's life and you didn't even know it was happening. Maybe God used me in that situation. I know He used others. Healing. It comes through time. I've healed. It doesn't mean I still don't hurt sometimes because of what happened but it means that I've moved past it; I've forgiven everything about the situation. People change. However, the best change is when you see God's hand in the situation; when you see their desire to grow closer to Christ; when you see they want to live the life God has called them to live and is on the journey no matter where it may take them. This makes me happy! =)
The unexpected, yes, has happened to me recently and continues to. Is it God's timing? Totally! I never would have thought I would be such a stronger person, more in tune with who I am and what I want out of life when everything happened last year. However, here I am! Stronger, closer to God, wanting to be closer, and knowing He is in control...not me!
You, however, may be thinking: "I want answers. I want the unexpected to happen to me." Just wait. It may not come in the way you are thinking or in the way that you want, but God will bring it to you in the form and fashion He desires. In the end that is all that matters.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
A target? Knowledge? Understanding? My heart?!
Do I have a target on my head, my heart?! Sometimes I feel that way. The past year...as in from August 2008 through today has been one year that I don't understand in my life. Yet it has been a year where I've celebrated the birth of my friend, Lauren's, son, Reid; I've celebrated my friend, Lorry's wedding; I've celebrated Jill's wedding; I've been to lots of football games; I've celebrated the news of my friend, Kristin's, pregnancy with Emma; I've celebrated the new of my friend, Lorry's, pregnancy with Tanner; I've celebrated the engagement of two fabulous, treasured friends, Steven and Courtney; I've celebrated having the joy of being asked to be one of Courtney's bridesmaids; I've celebrated my 28th birthday; I've celebrated my sister, brother, mom, and dad's birthdays; I've celebrated friends' birthdays; I've celebrated friends' family member's birthday; I've been saddened by the loss of a friend's loved-one; I've been saddened by the way a "friend" has treated my dad; I've learned more about who I am and what I want out of life; I've learned that in my life I must do what is right for me; I've struggled with self-esteem and body image; I've struggled with changing friendships or rather revelations of the type of friendship they are was not what I thought they were; I've celebrated working my butt off to put out a rockin' report at work; I've celebrated my sis ordering her Aggie ring; I've signed up for fantasy football and am determined to do well with the help of my sis...we will prevail(!); I've realized even more that I'm someone of second chances...everyone deserves one; I've realized even more than ever that I will not settle and if that means I'm picky or extremely picky than so be it; I've learned even more that my savior, and Lord are walking me through this craziness to become more of the person He has planned for me to be and to the place he wants me to be; I've learned and realized that I may be single for the rest of my life but that doesn't mean I'll be alone as Jesus is always with me and being single with Jesus is way more fun than being in a relationship I don't want or isn't meant to be; I've realized/learned/struggled/etc............................
I've done a lot this year. It has all brought me to who I am and where I am and wouldn't change it for anything. However, I would like to understand why some circumstances had to happen. I would like to understand why my heart feels a certain way about a certain situation. I would like to understand....I would like to know.......I would like.......
Reality?! I may never know. I may never understand. I may never get what I would like. That's right! I'm okay with that. The extremely human-side of me isn't but the part of me that relies on God and has been shaped by Him is okay with that because God only wants what is best for me and something better will be around the corner. Even if I don't think so, I will eventually realize it as God's will is where I want to be.
As such, here is what I do know right now: I have an amazing family...I have some fabulous friends...I am a rockin' CPA with goals for the future that I'm excited about...I have a house and a car (nice ones, I might add, that I feel so blessed to have)...A church I can go to every week...the ability to support myself...I'm an "aunt" to Mr. Reid who I do not get to see often enough(!)...I'm a soon to be "aunt" to Miss Emma(!)...I have a love for music...
I have and know a lot. You do too if you think about it. It isn't Thanksgiving yet, but I challenge you to be thankful for all that you do have and do know. IT is MORE than you think! I know it was for me when I really thought about it.
Now, no this doesn't take away those human feelings, human wants, and human needs that scream really loud, but it does mean that you can be happy in your current circumstances and have a plan that may change but a plan for the future.
So, even if you think you have a target on you like I do sometimes, you can know that YOU are LOVED and YOU are on the ROAD to becoming a better person...the person God wants you to be and you know what you need to know when you need to know it.
I've done a lot this year. It has all brought me to who I am and where I am and wouldn't change it for anything. However, I would like to understand why some circumstances had to happen. I would like to understand why my heart feels a certain way about a certain situation. I would like to understand....I would like to know.......I would like.......
Reality?! I may never know. I may never understand. I may never get what I would like. That's right! I'm okay with that. The extremely human-side of me isn't but the part of me that relies on God and has been shaped by Him is okay with that because God only wants what is best for me and something better will be around the corner. Even if I don't think so, I will eventually realize it as God's will is where I want to be.
As such, here is what I do know right now: I have an amazing family...I have some fabulous friends...I am a rockin' CPA with goals for the future that I'm excited about...I have a house and a car (nice ones, I might add, that I feel so blessed to have)...A church I can go to every week...the ability to support myself...I'm an "aunt" to Mr. Reid who I do not get to see often enough(!)...I'm a soon to be "aunt" to Miss Emma(!)...I have a love for music...
I have and know a lot. You do too if you think about it. It isn't Thanksgiving yet, but I challenge you to be thankful for all that you do have and do know. IT is MORE than you think! I know it was for me when I really thought about it.
Now, no this doesn't take away those human feelings, human wants, and human needs that scream really loud, but it does mean that you can be happy in your current circumstances and have a plan that may change but a plan for the future.
So, even if you think you have a target on you like I do sometimes, you can know that YOU are LOVED and YOU are on the ROAD to becoming a better person...the person God wants you to be and you know what you need to know when you need to know it.
Monday, August 24, 2009
August 24, 2009
The 24th day of August, the 8th month of the year.
The 236th day of the year.
We are currently 64.7% through the year.
123 days til Christmas.
129 day til we ring in 2010.
Did you know all that?
What does this year mean to you so far?
Do you understand the circumstances that have happened to you?
Do you understand the relationships that have developed and/or gone away thus far?
Do you know that God has a reason for YOU and for you making is this far into 2009?
Do you know that God can be the best friend you don't have? Or be another best friend you have?
Do you know that positive thinking is what will bring you the most fulillment? Remember, though, that you aren't perfect and will have times of negativity or "less-positive" times.
Do you know that no matter what God has plans to propsper you and not for harm? (check out Jeremiah 29:11)
Do you know that each day has enough worry of it's own, so why worry about what tomorrow may bring? (check out Matthew 6, end of chapter)
Do you know?
Yes, I'm on a bit of a "do you know" phase right now with myself. I've asked myself all of these questions. Most of them I can answer, actually almost all of them. However, there are a few that I can't. The reason I can't is because I'm not sure what God's reasoning is for everything that has gone on this year in my life; I'm not sure why my relationships are what they are this year so far; but I do know that God has a reason and a purpose. It is hard no knowing and not understanding. I have to trust that no matter what, God is in control. He has my best at heart and knows the people that I need in my life and why. He also knows the people that need me in their life and why.
Know this, God's plan and reasoning is better than yours could be any day. You may not know now, but it is all working towards something wonderful, something good.
May God Bless each of You as You travel through this week and this adventure we call Life!
:)
The 236th day of the year.
We are currently 64.7% through the year.
123 days til Christmas.
129 day til we ring in 2010.
Did you know all that?
What does this year mean to you so far?
Do you understand the circumstances that have happened to you?
Do you understand the relationships that have developed and/or gone away thus far?
Do you know that God has a reason for YOU and for you making is this far into 2009?
Do you know that God can be the best friend you don't have? Or be another best friend you have?
Do you know that positive thinking is what will bring you the most fulillment? Remember, though, that you aren't perfect and will have times of negativity or "less-positive" times.
Do you know that no matter what God has plans to propsper you and not for harm? (check out Jeremiah 29:11)
Do you know that each day has enough worry of it's own, so why worry about what tomorrow may bring? (check out Matthew 6, end of chapter)
Do you know?
Yes, I'm on a bit of a "do you know" phase right now with myself. I've asked myself all of these questions. Most of them I can answer, actually almost all of them. However, there are a few that I can't. The reason I can't is because I'm not sure what God's reasoning is for everything that has gone on this year in my life; I'm not sure why my relationships are what they are this year so far; but I do know that God has a reason and a purpose. It is hard no knowing and not understanding. I have to trust that no matter what, God is in control. He has my best at heart and knows the people that I need in my life and why. He also knows the people that need me in their life and why.
Know this, God's plan and reasoning is better than yours could be any day. You may not know now, but it is all working towards something wonderful, something good.
May God Bless each of You as You travel through this week and this adventure we call Life!
:)
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
It...Really Shows How Great of a Heart You have.
This is what I was told last night. Well, one of the things. I've found that when I'm friends with someone or someone impacts my life in some way that no matter what I forgive and want to be there in any way for them that may be needed. I know this is a compliment. I embrace it as I'd rather be this way than a bitter, mad person all the time. However, sometimes I would rather just forget and move on. God did not make me this way, though.
I'll never forget my high school days in the Appalachian Mountains in East Tennessee at Daniel Boone High School. I'll also never forget my senior year that was full of happy, fun times but also some times that I wish God hadn't let happen. However, before I even made it to Texas, we moved right after graduation (literally), I had forgiven everyone for situations that had happened and things that had been said. I'm so glad I did this, so very glad. I've reconnected through the years with so many friends from high school and that makes me happy.
As I've contemplated all of this over the past day, I realized that this is a gift God has given me and in the end every situation will make sense. In the end I'm a better person. In the end, hopefully, I'm ministering or helping someone else out. In the end I'm being the person God made me to be and not someone I'm not.
In the end, I'm giving relationships of all kinds my all and not giving up on them. That makes me happy. That is what I feel we are all called to do. It may just be in a different fashion. Who knows.
May God bless each of you! Much love to you all!
I'll never forget my high school days in the Appalachian Mountains in East Tennessee at Daniel Boone High School. I'll also never forget my senior year that was full of happy, fun times but also some times that I wish God hadn't let happen. However, before I even made it to Texas, we moved right after graduation (literally), I had forgiven everyone for situations that had happened and things that had been said. I'm so glad I did this, so very glad. I've reconnected through the years with so many friends from high school and that makes me happy.
As I've contemplated all of this over the past day, I realized that this is a gift God has given me and in the end every situation will make sense. In the end I'm a better person. In the end, hopefully, I'm ministering or helping someone else out. In the end I'm being the person God made me to be and not someone I'm not.
In the end, I'm giving relationships of all kinds my all and not giving up on them. That makes me happy. That is what I feel we are all called to do. It may just be in a different fashion. Who knows.
May God bless each of you! Much love to you all!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
So much to say...
...yet I can't find the words.
Do you ever feel that way? I do. I feel that way now and I have felt that way quite a bit throughout this year. It is a feeling that in many ways doesn't bother me but in other ways does. Let me explain: it bothers me when I want to use my feelings to help others or to hopefully help others. It bothers me when I just want to verbalize and get it out. It doesn't bother me when I realize the thoughts and feelings make me happy and I don't need to verbalize them.
I can say that I will never fully understand this feeling. The same way I will never fully understand the events of this year or rather the past couple of years.
My dad told me tonight that sometime we are taken through things or allowed to go through certian thing to better who we are or to show us who we are and can be. However, I struggle with going through things, times, that you don't need to show you this and that you never asked for. But I have to trust that even though I may not have asked for the feelings or the circustances to happen that God does know best.
The one thing we can do is say what we need to say when we wanto say and when we feel the need to say it. We can trust that God is in control and has our best interests at heart.
Do you ever feel that way? I do. I feel that way now and I have felt that way quite a bit throughout this year. It is a feeling that in many ways doesn't bother me but in other ways does. Let me explain: it bothers me when I want to use my feelings to help others or to hopefully help others. It bothers me when I just want to verbalize and get it out. It doesn't bother me when I realize the thoughts and feelings make me happy and I don't need to verbalize them.
I can say that I will never fully understand this feeling. The same way I will never fully understand the events of this year or rather the past couple of years.
My dad told me tonight that sometime we are taken through things or allowed to go through certian thing to better who we are or to show us who we are and can be. However, I struggle with going through things, times, that you don't need to show you this and that you never asked for. But I have to trust that even though I may not have asked for the feelings or the circustances to happen that God does know best.
The one thing we can do is say what we need to say when we wanto say and when we feel the need to say it. We can trust that God is in control and has our best interests at heart.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
If I make it through the next week and a day...
Me, Reid (Lauren's little one), Kristin, Shelley, and Lauren ...then I get to see these lovely ladies (love them!!) for our A&M Girls Vacay/Getaway 2009!!!! We won't be going far for me...just down the road a bit to Shelley's new and beautiful house! However, I will be so ready for this weekend unless work kills me first! haha!
Monday, July 20, 2009
Charlie's Angels We Could Be!!
Saturday night after I'd worked pretty much all day, had a lovely dinner with some old family friends at The Taste of Texas, I met up with Courtney. I finally got to meet her lovely mom and sister!! I feel like I already know them and was finally putting the real face and person with the pictures and stories! I got to see her parents new, beautiful house in Seven Lakes. It is totally a house that I would build and own!! Well, not now, of course, but when I'm married and have 2 kids! haha! After leaving her house, we headed over to Dave and Alan's to watch Yes Man and Julie was already there! Before settling down in the media room for a good and funny movie...we decided to utilize one of the many BB Guns that Dave owns. Courtney was a natural and now is ready to head out to the shooting range! Alan took this photo of us with Courtney's new iPhone.
I think we would make quite the duo for Mr. Charlie as an angel! Don't you agree! haha!!
I really want to give a shout out to this fabulous girl, Courtney!! She is engaged to one of my great guy friends, Steven, whom I like to say is my "older" brother. Not sure he knows that, but I consider him like a brother to me. They are the cutest couple, which I've said before, but this is for Courtney. Sorry, Steven!
We've only known each other for over a year now and I feel like it's been much longer...in a good way! God brought her into my life when he knew we needed each other. It's funny because it wasn't something I was looking for. I honestly was just wanting to provide encouragement and then a comfortable place in the midst of many people who weren't known. Never in a million years did I think she would be come one of my best friends and that I'd be asked to be one of her bridesmaids!! Not only do I get to see one of my friends get married to the man of her dreams but I also get to see my friend marry the woman of his dreams! Wonderful!! You know it's funny because she and Steven, I must say, helped me through a rough time I went through last year. God chose for me to walk down a certain path, to date someone who was wrong for me, who did hurt me, who lied to me, who in the end allowed me to learn so much more about myself and life, in general. Should I be thanking him?! No, I'm not to that point, but I must say that I learned that I will never settle and I will never not be myself and I will never give up on what I want in life. However, Courtney listened, gave me advice, and stood by me when I needed it most. I'm eternally grateful and for me, it made me realize that not only did God provide this new and wonderful person in my life but he provided me with a friend...a friend who will be a life friend...one that I plan on having in my life for forever! I mean, who is going to remind her and Steven of all the craziness I've seen them do and go through when they are old and gray?! Oh, you betcha I will!! haha!
All this is to say...I love you Courtney and thank you for everything so far and everything that is to come that you will be there to help me with! By the way...check out her blog: http://courtneyandsteven.blogspot.com/. Pray for her as she finishes her Masters in Education at BAYLOR (!!) and then starts teaching Kindergarten here in Katy all within the next several weeks!!
AND...I think we would definitely protect people. I mean come on...Charlie's Angels: Texas-Style! It would be a blockbuster hit!! =)
I think we would make quite the duo for Mr. Charlie as an angel! Don't you agree! haha!!I really want to give a shout out to this fabulous girl, Courtney!! She is engaged to one of my great guy friends, Steven, whom I like to say is my "older" brother. Not sure he knows that, but I consider him like a brother to me. They are the cutest couple, which I've said before, but this is for Courtney. Sorry, Steven!
We've only known each other for over a year now and I feel like it's been much longer...in a good way! God brought her into my life when he knew we needed each other. It's funny because it wasn't something I was looking for. I honestly was just wanting to provide encouragement and then a comfortable place in the midst of many people who weren't known. Never in a million years did I think she would be come one of my best friends and that I'd be asked to be one of her bridesmaids!! Not only do I get to see one of my friends get married to the man of her dreams but I also get to see my friend marry the woman of his dreams! Wonderful!! You know it's funny because she and Steven, I must say, helped me through a rough time I went through last year. God chose for me to walk down a certain path, to date someone who was wrong for me, who did hurt me, who lied to me, who in the end allowed me to learn so much more about myself and life, in general. Should I be thanking him?! No, I'm not to that point, but I must say that I learned that I will never settle and I will never not be myself and I will never give up on what I want in life. However, Courtney listened, gave me advice, and stood by me when I needed it most. I'm eternally grateful and for me, it made me realize that not only did God provide this new and wonderful person in my life but he provided me with a friend...a friend who will be a life friend...one that I plan on having in my life for forever! I mean, who is going to remind her and Steven of all the craziness I've seen them do and go through when they are old and gray?! Oh, you betcha I will!! haha!
All this is to say...I love you Courtney and thank you for everything so far and everything that is to come that you will be there to help me with! By the way...check out her blog: http://courtneyandsteven.blogspot.com/. Pray for her as she finishes her Masters in Education at BAYLOR (!!) and then starts teaching Kindergarten here in Katy all within the next several weeks!!
AND...I think we would definitely protect people. I mean come on...Charlie's Angels: Texas-Style! It would be a blockbuster hit!! =)
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
For the 3rd Day...
...I was reminded of the words "leap of faith."
I have the facebook application on my blackberry curve (hopefully soon to be iPhone 3GS!), and every morning out of habit I do a quick check. Well, this morning one of my friends from high school, Miss Kaysi (!), who now lives in Reno, was talking about taking a leap of faith in her status. Wow! Sunday, God randomly brings the words that made up my quote to ponder. Monday, the Bachelorette talked about taking a "leap of faith." Tuesday, Kaysi is talking about it on her facebook status. Now, I'm not a huge believer in signs because I think we start looking for things to fit an answer or decision that we want. Instead I believe in a God who places thoughts, people, places, things, etc. in our lives at the right time to guide us along the right path...that diverse and less traveled path that I consider my life. I try to take those thoughts, people, places, things, etc. and put them in the perspective of God's will for my life. It is only in that way that I can go through life patiently waiting for all that He has in store for me.
However, God really has me wondering what in the world He is trying to tell me. After the day at work I had today, I'm thinking maybe it is to just take that leap that even though I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel, even though everything still seems so much like a web of confusion with no distinct pattern or pieces to put together yet, and even though, I have no clue how all the work is going to get done, it WILL. With HIS help I will and those who are helping me will provide a quality expert report and schedules for our client. Maybe the "leap of faith" reminder I have been getting is that simple...for me to do with my work project that, by the way, has to be done in less than 2, yes 2, weeks!
OR...maybe God has something totally different in mind for reminding me about taking that "leap of faith." Maybe he is just preparing me for something in the near future or even the distant future. I have no idea. I firmly believe, though, that everything we go through leads us to where we are to be. We learn from everything and it prepares us for either the immediate future and even for many years down the road.
I may not know what God has been trying to prepare me for this week, but I can say one thing, I am totally leaving work in His hands.
What about you? Can you do that? Can you leave it in God's hands? Can you take that "leap of faith?"
I have the facebook application on my blackberry curve (hopefully soon to be iPhone 3GS!), and every morning out of habit I do a quick check. Well, this morning one of my friends from high school, Miss Kaysi (!), who now lives in Reno, was talking about taking a leap of faith in her status. Wow! Sunday, God randomly brings the words that made up my quote to ponder. Monday, the Bachelorette talked about taking a "leap of faith." Tuesday, Kaysi is talking about it on her facebook status. Now, I'm not a huge believer in signs because I think we start looking for things to fit an answer or decision that we want. Instead I believe in a God who places thoughts, people, places, things, etc. in our lives at the right time to guide us along the right path...that diverse and less traveled path that I consider my life. I try to take those thoughts, people, places, things, etc. and put them in the perspective of God's will for my life. It is only in that way that I can go through life patiently waiting for all that He has in store for me.
However, God really has me wondering what in the world He is trying to tell me. After the day at work I had today, I'm thinking maybe it is to just take that leap that even though I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel, even though everything still seems so much like a web of confusion with no distinct pattern or pieces to put together yet, and even though, I have no clue how all the work is going to get done, it WILL. With HIS help I will and those who are helping me will provide a quality expert report and schedules for our client. Maybe the "leap of faith" reminder I have been getting is that simple...for me to do with my work project that, by the way, has to be done in less than 2, yes 2, weeks!
OR...maybe God has something totally different in mind for reminding me about taking that "leap of faith." Maybe he is just preparing me for something in the near future or even the distant future. I have no idea. I firmly believe, though, that everything we go through leads us to where we are to be. We learn from everything and it prepares us for either the immediate future and even for many years down the road.
I may not know what God has been trying to prepare me for this week, but I can say one thing, I am totally leaving work in His hands.
What about you? Can you do that? Can you leave it in God's hands? Can you take that "leap of faith?"
Monday, July 13, 2009
Leap of Faith...
If you have read my quote from last night then you will see this is a continuation. I'm so super busy with work right now on top of an unexpected possible legal battle that I shouldn't be taking time to do this, but I need to get it out.
Tonight while working I was watching the Bachelorette, which I DVR'd (on my awesom ATT U-verse DVR!!). Jillian's first date was with Kiptyn in Maui, Hawaii!! They went to a ropes course, which would totally be a HUGE thing for me as I have a fear of heights especially when I'm having to walk on unstable things with only a cord to hold me if I slip and fall. Needless to say I understood Jillians anxiety when they came to the "Leap of Faith"...the last part of the ropes course. It was such a reminder of how life and relationships (of all kinds) are a leap of faith.
I'm not sure why God brought the quote to mind that I had last night and then tonight reminds me of taking a "leap of faith" while working and watching my DVR'd show. Why?! I have NO CLUE!!!! I've been taking so many leaps of faith since moving to Texas a little over 10 years ago...10 YEARS!!!! This is not the time to go into detail of the road I've been on that has led me to where I am today, but I must have or rather, I know I have more leaps to make. Some of them I'm totally ready to make, but I have no clue if they will come. Others are leaps that I need to take in the meantime while the others may or may not come...Patience!! That is a HUGE leap that I've been trying to take for such a long time. I've had one test of patience after the other over the past 10 years and right now I'm trying to practice that leap and total trust that I know if I'm patient it will be worth it in the end. I'm trying so hard. Yes, I can try harder at times, but I'm trying to the best of my human ability. Other leaps are those I'm taking right now not out of choice or want to but out of a situation that I cannot get out of. A situation that I did not ask for and is the result of someone else not doing their job. Yeah, the kind you don't ever like! However, I must take it. I must do this for not only myself but others who don't know what steps to take right now.
So...TWO nights in a row I'm reminded of taking a "leap of faith." I still do not know why, but I do know that I WILL be PATIENT. I WILL WAIT. I WILL TRUST that GOD knows all and will bring me through STRONGER than before! God must know I can handle a lot in my life, and well, it is comforting to know that he gives us exactly what HE knows we can handle.
So...is there a "leap of faith" that you are not wanting to take? Is there something in your life that you are unsure about, do not have all the answers to, but know that it could be something amazing or wonderful if you just took that leap? Or something that could help others and bring peace to many by taking that leap? Or molding you into a stronger more radiant person that God has meant for you to be by taking that leap? Whatever it may be, take the leap. Take the leap in faith. Take the leap knowing that God is in control and has you in the palm of His hand. He loves you more than you can imagine and only wants what is best for YOU!
You ARE LOVED!!!!
Tonight while working I was watching the Bachelorette, which I DVR'd (on my awesom ATT U-verse DVR!!). Jillian's first date was with Kiptyn in Maui, Hawaii!! They went to a ropes course, which would totally be a HUGE thing for me as I have a fear of heights especially when I'm having to walk on unstable things with only a cord to hold me if I slip and fall. Needless to say I understood Jillians anxiety when they came to the "Leap of Faith"...the last part of the ropes course. It was such a reminder of how life and relationships (of all kinds) are a leap of faith.
I'm not sure why God brought the quote to mind that I had last night and then tonight reminds me of taking a "leap of faith" while working and watching my DVR'd show. Why?! I have NO CLUE!!!! I've been taking so many leaps of faith since moving to Texas a little over 10 years ago...10 YEARS!!!! This is not the time to go into detail of the road I've been on that has led me to where I am today, but I must have or rather, I know I have more leaps to make. Some of them I'm totally ready to make, but I have no clue if they will come. Others are leaps that I need to take in the meantime while the others may or may not come...Patience!! That is a HUGE leap that I've been trying to take for such a long time. I've had one test of patience after the other over the past 10 years and right now I'm trying to practice that leap and total trust that I know if I'm patient it will be worth it in the end. I'm trying so hard. Yes, I can try harder at times, but I'm trying to the best of my human ability. Other leaps are those I'm taking right now not out of choice or want to but out of a situation that I cannot get out of. A situation that I did not ask for and is the result of someone else not doing their job. Yeah, the kind you don't ever like! However, I must take it. I must do this for not only myself but others who don't know what steps to take right now.
So...TWO nights in a row I'm reminded of taking a "leap of faith." I still do not know why, but I do know that I WILL be PATIENT. I WILL WAIT. I WILL TRUST that GOD knows all and will bring me through STRONGER than before! God must know I can handle a lot in my life, and well, it is comforting to know that he gives us exactly what HE knows we can handle.
So...is there a "leap of faith" that you are not wanting to take? Is there something in your life that you are unsure about, do not have all the answers to, but know that it could be something amazing or wonderful if you just took that leap? Or something that could help others and bring peace to many by taking that leap? Or molding you into a stronger more radiant person that God has meant for you to be by taking that leap? Whatever it may be, take the leap. Take the leap in faith. Take the leap knowing that God is in control and has you in the palm of His hand. He loves you more than you can imagine and only wants what is best for YOU!
You ARE LOVED!!!!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Quote to Ponder...
Sometimes the best things in life require a leap of faith...a step into the unknown...trusting that even though you don't have all the answers that leap is worth the possibility of something great!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Thursday!!....WAIT...it's only Wednesday!
Oh my!! So, this week has been long or has felt that way. It really hasn't been a bad week. Today was the worst as I have a situation that is going to yield some investigation and lots of prayer. I can't say anymore at this time. However, I been thinking that today is Thursday and tomorrow is Friday! Oh goodness!! I guess today was a bit more tiring than I thought. haha! I have a huge litigation case at work that I'm trying to get a good grip on so we dont have a rush at the court deadline. I'm trying to finish up other files so that others can have work to do. I'm also doing a side-job, which will enhance my knowledge and skills. Plus, I'm trying to get back on my work-out routine, and find time for friends! What a busy week this has been thus far.
Have no fear, though, as hopefully this weekend I will get caught up on my updates and PICTURES!!
I've had some amazing weekends over the past month...training in West Palm Beach, going to the movies, going to Austin and seeing caverns, celebrating Independence Day...
I'll leave you with this...
Be you; life life to the fullest; say what you mean; mean what you say; know that love (all the various kinds) is not easy but hard work, including the relationships that go with it; don't be afraid to fight for what you want; never give up; smile; remember the glass is half full; the road less travelled will strengthen you; no regrets, just learn from the highs and the lows as it all gets you to where you are, who you are. Life is not easy in this world, but I, for one, am not willing to give up on my passions, interests, loves, opportunities, and relationships.
Have no fear, though, as hopefully this weekend I will get caught up on my updates and PICTURES!!
I've had some amazing weekends over the past month...training in West Palm Beach, going to the movies, going to Austin and seeing caverns, celebrating Independence Day...
I'll leave you with this...
Be you; life life to the fullest; say what you mean; mean what you say; know that love (all the various kinds) is not easy but hard work, including the relationships that go with it; don't be afraid to fight for what you want; never give up; smile; remember the glass is half full; the road less travelled will strengthen you; no regrets, just learn from the highs and the lows as it all gets you to where you are, who you are. Life is not easy in this world, but I, for one, am not willing to give up on my passions, interests, loves, opportunities, and relationships.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Go After What YOU Want in LIFE
This morning I stumbled across an article with Katherine Heigl. I have to say that I agree with what she is saying. So many times in life, we, as women, are told or made to think that we cannot go after what we want. We feel sometimes that we must wait, not voice our opinion, etc. However, I firmly believe that we are to live life to the fullest and to the best of our ability as God has given us talents and the capability to make a wonderful life for ourselves. How else are we to learn new things, increase our knowledge, pick ourselves up from disappointments, etc. if we are not going after what we want and striving to be the best that we can.
I encourage you, man or woman, to read the following article. I think it pertains to everyone and yes, she is an actress, but that doesn't mean what she is saying doesn't have merit. It does!
http://omg.yahoo.com/news/katherine-heigls-secret-to-getting-what-she-wants/24674
Let me know what you think!
My goal for 2009 has been to live life to the fullest and go after what I want. Am I doing that? To some extent I think I am. This was a wonderful reminder for me to not let down but to press on no matter how long it takes! Step by step...moment by moment...it may not come immediately but go after it!
I encourage you, man or woman, to read the following article. I think it pertains to everyone and yes, she is an actress, but that doesn't mean what she is saying doesn't have merit. It does!
http://omg.yahoo.com/news/katherine-heigls-secret-to-getting-what-she-wants/24674
Let me know what you think!
My goal for 2009 has been to live life to the fullest and go after what I want. Am I doing that? To some extent I think I am. This was a wonderful reminder for me to not let down but to press on no matter how long it takes! Step by step...moment by moment...it may not come immediately but go after it!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Beautiful
Per Merriam-Webster: beau-ti-ful: 1. having qualities of beauty: exciting aesthetic pleasure 2. generally pleasing: excellent. synonyms beautiful, lovely, handsome, pretty, comely, fair mean exciting sensuous or aesthetic pleasure. beautiful applies to whatever excites the keenest of pleasure to the senses and stirs emotion through the senses <beautiful mountain scenery>. lovely is close to beautiful but applies to a narrower range of emotional excitation in suggesting the graceful, delicate, or exquisitelovely melody> . handsome suggests aesthetic pleasure due to proportion, symmetry, or elegancehandsome Georgian mansion> . pretty often applies to superficial or insubstantial attractivenesspretty scenes>. comely is like handsome in suggesting what is coolly approved rather than emotionally responded to comely grace of a dancer> . fair suggests beauty because of purity, flawlessness, or freshness <fair of face>.
It is a word that in my life was a treasured word. A word that held a very special place in my life, in my heart, in my mind. It is a word that to me is not used lightly. It is a word that can be used in a multitude of situations, when talking about God's creation whether it be that special person/significant other in our life, a sibling, a friend, the mountains, a sunrise, etc. However, when the use of the word comes to talking about a person...it is of the utmost or special word to me. Until recently...well, last year...I only remember one guy telling me I was beautiful. That man is my father, my dad, my daddy. He is an amazing Christian man and father. I couldn't ask for a better dad! I love him much! If i need anything he is there, no questions asked.
We are at today, and moments occur when I don't care if I ever hear the word beautiful mentioned in reference to me ever again. It has nothing to do with my dad, or my heavenly father who both think I'm beautiful inside and out. It has to do with someone who has taken away some of the specialness, you could say, of that word to me. I am leaning on God and allowing Him to heal this aspect of me. It takes time though.
I was recently reminded how often I was told I was beautiful. Then in that situation I was treated in a different way that made me question everything that was ever said to me. I am over that situation and time in my life. It was a great learning experience and I know God had and has a reason for me going through it. I'm so thankful that God kept me safe as so many worse things could have happened. I am blessed! I have moved on, which I love! However, I've found that I still need to lean on God and allow him to fully heal the part of me that doesn't feel beautiful.
To be honest, there have been situations since where I have felt beautiful, extremely happy, and that word has not even been uttered to me. Honestly, right now those times and moments in my life over the past several months are more precious than hearing that word.
I've realized that sometimes you don't have to say it. I've realized that God has wonderful, beautiful plans for my life that so far have not happened as I thought they would and will continue to not happen as I thought they would! But they are always what is best for me!
I'm not sure well I have articulated all of this, but it just goes to show you that I'm not perfect. As much as I look on the positive side, etc. it doesn't happen 100% of the time. I struggle with things just like anyone else, and I have things in my past that cause me to struggle at unexpected times like anyone else. However, I talk to God or pray to God and tell him all of this. I know that He will help me through it and I know that no matter what that I am a beautiful child of God. No, it isn't a word that I care to hear said to me in reference to how I look inside and/or out, but I will not forget that I am.
You ARE BEAUTIFUL too!! Don't forget that! I'm so thankful for my family and some very close friends who keep me grounded. I love them all dearly and thank them for all the fun we have and everything else.
~Jeremiah 29:11~
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