Well, it has been a while. A lot has been going one. I don't think anyone really reads this, so I'm ok with that. This realization also means that I can be even more free with what I want to say. I can't really be free to say things on Facebook. It seems I can't really say what I want in real life to certain people. So, here we are on this little 'ole blog, where I can say whatever I want because if you choose to read my blog, then you know it's mine, solely mine, and I can say whatever I want.
That being said, Matt and I have been feeling like God is bringing us to a change. We aren't sure yet it if means leaving our church home and finding another one or if it means a change in Bible Study Class or if it means finally trying to get leadership to realize changes need to be made where we are currently. We, unfortunately, have not been regular at all to the current Bible Study class that we attend. We have not received a single phone call, text, email, letter, postcard, etc. saying how we are missed, asking if everything is ok, etc. What is wrong with this picture? Well, I have been a member of this church since the summer of 1999. Matt has been a member since he moved down here in 2003. We aren't one-time guests who came and never came back, but that shouldn't matter. Each person that enters through those doors and visits a class or is a member of a class should be considered as equal as anyone else in the class. We are even in leadership in the class, even though what we want to accomplish with our position never seems to get the go-ahead or support to get going. You would think that as leaders in the class, we would definitely get some kind of email, phone call, text, etc. asking what all is going on. However, we have received nothing. I wonder how visitors feel when they attend? We have known almost everyone in the class for years, have been to each other's weddings, have even gone on trips to amazing places at times, and have shared many meals, games, adventures together. However, it seems that all that is in the past and doesn't matter. I know that people come and go into your lives, but shouldn't it be about each person trying and putting forth an effort? I have put forth such an effort for so long that I'm emotionally tired of doing it anymore. I want to feel like I have real, honest relationships in all facets of life, but especially when it comes to the relationships I have with those I worship with every week.
So, as a result of all of this and an uneasiness we have been feeling, we are seeking God and deciding to see if He is calling us to another church in our area. This is not easy. I love our current pastor at our church. I love the worship. Most times I love our Bible Study class. I don't love that there are really no opportunities to get involved in music unless you want to be in the big choir during 11am service. I don't love how it seems like we don't matter to others and it doesn't matter whether we are there or not. I don't love not feeling like myself when I walk into class. I don't like feeling like I'm being picked apart. I could go on and on but I won't. So, we are searching and waiting for God to show us His plan for this area of our marriage and lives.
Moving on....we bought a House!! Our first home to own together!! The townhouse I had bought before Matt and I even started dating. We are so excited as this house will be our home for years and years. It will be where our children are brought home from the hospital. It will be where many, many memories are made!
Matt is now a Varsity Football coach at his school!!!! He is the running backs coach and is loving it! He is currently pulling double duty with playoffs now starting for baseball and spring football being in it's second week. We don't like the late nights he is having but I am so proud of him and love how he is really enjoying everything with his job right now!
We are still amongst a mass of boxes and an unorganized house! I hope that by tomorrow I can actually start cooking for us again! Our diet has been horrible since we backed up the kitchen and then moved! The scale is not my friend right now.
Well, that's about all I have time for right now. To any readers, have a wonderful and blessed day! :)
